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random post..

2012-01-25T23:58:00.000-08:00

life have been super hectic lately, assignments, birthdays, Chinese New Year, exams, catching up with friends etc..
though, life's hectic but i'm happier now..^-^
and yes, i've changed..
i know i've been metioning it alot but i'm proud that i've changed..^-^
i don't care if some people think that i've change for the better or worst,
as long as my conscience is clear..^-^
as long as i know what i'm doing, i'm fine with that..:))
hees..

i've never feel so happy & good after the breakup,
i've totally lose control of everything especially in relationship.
i am devasted, hopeless, i felt useless..
& it made me lose confidence in myself, i felt miserable, i felt negative about everything especially about myself, i will tend to be very paranoid..
& it was a torment to me..

i'm all alone & no one will truly understand how i feel..
my heart is falling into pieces..
it was like as if someone is stabbing me in my chest..
that feeling...it was indescribable..
that feeling of hurt...will always be there..
though i don't really know how to describe that feeling, i can only say that,
only tears will start to flow down my cheek all of a sudden..
it's just not comfortable, it's a torture..
but i have to go through it alone..
it's all in the mind thingy..

even now, sometimes when i talked or think about my past relationship or when a certain song starts to play in my ipod, it would trigger all those past memories that i had & i will have the urge to cry..
not that i still cant let go or forget the past relationship, is because i'm super duper disappointed in that boy who made me believed in him..
yea..boy..cos he ain't a man..not even a guy..
he made me looked down on him more but at the same time, i feel pathetic for him..
not that i'm mean or cruel but he just made me feel that way..
hmm..maybe is the way he do things..i guess..

anyways,
that chapter of the story has ended, i have to forget & let go right?
but truthfully speaking, i won't and will not..
because i must always remind myself that this is a lesson learnt
& I THANK YOU because if not for him, i will not be today how i am..
& i will not see his true colours..
YA!!! THANKYOU ASSHOLE!!!

yeap..back to now,
another chapter has begun, start a whole new relationship in a different perspective & i'm taking baby steps to think positively about everything around me and of course about myself now..
trust can't be earned overnight..
but i'm willing to take the risk once again..but..BUT..i will not take it to heart, in case i'll get hurt again..
yea..that feeling..SUCKS!!!
but yea..
used to be very paranoid & i feel very insecure with him,
i've talked to him and he answered all my doubts & my curious-ness..
so yeap..i'm glad that he would tell me how he feels & what he's thinking so at least there's some communication among us..
thus, i feel more comfortable when i'm with him..^-^
so..i need to change the way i think about every single thing..
& yea..i'm more positive now and of course still taking baby steps..
i'm a happier girl now..^-^

relationship used to be something very valuble to me, but now, it's not so important anymore..
yup..not anymore..
now, relationship, it's just another part of life..
cos i'm not as lucky as other girls so yea..
maybe i'm a little different,
maybe i just need to put in more effort than the other girls..
hmmm..it's not a bad thing right?
by going through a little more than other girls..

anyways..
i love the way i am now & how the things are going now..
just..not to put all my heart in it & i'll be happy..^-^
though, i'll still feel negative about myself at times,
so i must JIAYOUS!!!! ^-^

shall head to bed now..^-^
goodnight..<3

Chinese New Year Day 2 with laogong..

2012-01-24T17:58:00.000-08:00

meet xiaosi aka laogong today at vivo city..:B

after for sooo long, finally i get to meet her..^-^

super happy..

though vivo is super packed, we manage to find a place to chill..:DDD

went to Haagen-Dazs for ice-cream ^-^

&&& i bought my very first mature wallet at Charles & Keith..^-^

super happy today!!! :))))

my very first "mature" wallet..<3

Chinese New Year day 1..:DD

2012-01-23T17:58:00.000-08:00

Gong Xi Fa Cai !!!!

it's another chinese new year..

another stay home day..

haha..

forever home..-_-

ahyi & niece came first then my cousin's family & lastly my biao jie's family..

collected some red packets..^-^

means i have $$$ for the time being..:DD

woohoo!!! HAHA!!

little niece & me..^-^

my ahyi sleeping..HAHA!!

little niece & my bro..HAHA!!

Us..:DD

ME!! <3

our very first outing..^-^

2012-01-22T20:23:00.000-08:00

Hi all!!!Finally have some free time to update my blog..it have been like soooooo dead..heh >_<

anyways..

meet alicia today..^-^

went out with her for the very first time ^-^

love her eye make up..HAHAHA!!!!

accompanied her to do her hair then headed to sushi tei for lunch..^-^

then to H&M, flea at scape then back to clementi..^-^

met samantha later on to do her last minute shopping for Chinese New Year clothes..

while alicia went to meet sylvia..haha!!!

I LOVE MY FRIENDS ❤❤❤

2012-01-07T22:05:00.000-08:00

First time blog using my iPhone..hees..

So far quite good:)) I think must blog while charging the phone is better than blog using your phone without charging cos I think the battery might run out fast..haha!!

Anyways, my birthday celebration was a great one yesterday:)) though not fantastic, but to me those who took their effort to come even though they're busy, I'm very touched and happy that they came:DDD

I ❤ all my friends until I don't wanna lose any of them..they are do dear to me until I wanna hug them, love them, laugh with them, be lame with them, play with them, joke with them, tease them, calling each other names and ended up laughing, scold each other also will end up laughing, GL one another, KB one another ALSO will end up laughing..HAHA!!!

Love those fun moments and laughing so hard at those no sense joke..HAHA!!! ❤❤❤

I just can't smile without them^-^

I'll always think of my friends when I hear some random words which reminds me of them and it would make me burst out laughing at myself like some crazy person..but yea..because of them, they made my day :DDD

I'm proud to say that they're my friends and I'm blessed to have them..:DD

i'm 21 already..

2012-01-06T20:21:00.000-08:00

Every 6th January marks that I've grown another year older,& it doesn't mean that I have to be mature every time cos being childish is apart of me, not a part of me.:DD
And also, I've learn to accept & let go of what's meant to be & what's not.
Some things are easy to be said than done.
No one said it's gonna be easy but I believe tat I can do it!!!
So yeap..加油 ROLINDA!!! LOVE YOU ♥

It's time for me to forget about the past & think positive..^-^
I'll do my best..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!

so many things, so little time.

2012-01-04T21:27:00.000-08:00

assignments week & exams week is here again..
which means STRESS WEEK!!!! >_<
hope i can manage & not re-module my marketing >_<
PLEASE LET ME PASS..
A 'D' will do..>__<

last day of 20..

2012-01-04T21:17:00.000-08:00

& tomorrow's my birthday..:DDD

its time..time for me to forget him & cherish the ones i have now..

no use dwelling/hanging on to the past..

yeap..he's such an ASSHOLE anyways..

my bro was right..HE'S AN ASSHOLE!!!!!

A Bastard!!! Cannot take jokes & never will understand people's feelings.

A jerk who thinks he's the most handsome & good looking guy in the world.

WOW!!! what a high ego he had..yea..very high!!!!

but nope..he's just a boy..NOT a guy, NOT EVEN A MAN!!!!

& Always a player. Now then i realize..but it's all too late.

I was stupid & i got played.

Sad for me, Happy for him.

anyways..

its the past..& yea..i've changed..^-^

2nd day of 2012..

2012-01-03T13:06:00.000-08:00

hmm..
do you all believe in the end of the world this year?
what does it mean by that?
why do people say everybody in the world will die?
what about my future?
i'm so scared..

Hmm..

2012-01-02T14:42:00.000-08:00

i hate being paranoid..
i hate being not loved by anyone..
i hate being alone..
i hate being an option..
i hate being a subsitute..
i don't know if i should trust or not..
it's..just so hard..
i just want to be loved and wanted..

2012!!! :DD

2012-01-01T20:14:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!! :DD
It's 2012 already..

WOW!!! time really do fly..>_<
& i have many assignments waiting for me to complete..T-T

so..my 2011 SUCKS BIG TIME!!!!
especially October..HATE IT MAN!!!! *gosh*
but..my boy came along and made everything better..

anyways..
i can say that 2011 is over & a lesson learnt. Now, i shall embrace 2012 & look forward to everyday..^-^

gotta set new resolution for 2012 for a better me..

& do you believe in the world's ending in 2012???

New Year Eve!! :DD

2011-12-31T23:30:00.000-08:00

dinner with daddy & gu gu's famil at Pan Pacific Hotel..
chua en lai was the MC..^-^ haha!! shuai..:DDD
daddy asked me to take a photo with him but i refuse to..heh.*shy*

dinner is awkward with my biao jie & her sister..-_-
don't really like them cos i don't know..
just maybe i feel inferior whenever i'm with them..
hmm..

anyways..
around 10 plus pm, dad allowed me to join my crazy clique to countdown for the new year at marina barrage..:DDD HAPPY!!! hees

i love my clique!!! :DDD
but we're going our separate ways soon..:(( *sadden*
but we'll sure keep in contact..:DDD haha!!!

Study...

2011-12-30T01:35:00.000-08:00

meeting mei today after my class to do some assignments..

like finally i'm starting to do my assignments..*HOLY SHIT*!!!!! >_<

all assignments are due on the second week of new year & the first week of January is my birthday and i have exam the dat after my birthday..i'm in deep shit man >_<

my mei is gonna kill me if she sees this..oops >_< heh..

and procrastination is my WORST habit >_< especially in school work & exams..>_<

i think this shall be my new resolution..heh

i have to change on that man..

went for dinner around 7 plus i guess..

cos gastric is starting to act up..-_-

had pontian noodle for dinner..:DD

then hanged around the mall before we head home..

felt super sleepy while on our way back home..haha

had a great time with mei..^-^

dance dance dance..:DDD

2011-12-29T22:06:00.000-08:00

meet mei after class for dance..:DDD
did some recap on the open house steps & yea..we kinda forgot the steps..:(((
but at least we manage to learn a short part of "郭書瑤 - honey" & "Jay Chou - mine mine" dance..:DDD weee!!!!

happy happy..:DDDD
after dance, went to have our dinner at AKB48 restaurant then bused home..:DD
&&& THANKYOU MEI for the BY2 90' 闹 now album!!! :DDDD
shoooo happy!!!!! hees..:DDD
MEI's the BEST!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! ^-^

2011-12-25T12:31:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!

suppose to be in Thailand for Christmas and New Year but this year, i'm spending it here, in Singapore..:'((
i missed my granny so bad..>_<

anyways..
went shopping as usual..haha!!!
have been shopping after i broke up with my ex..
but i'm THANKFUL for my ex, because of him, i've changed..A LOT!!
as in the way i dress & my thinking..no more naive rolinda..^-^
yeap..
enjoyed shopping Christmas presents for my family and friends..:DD

how i wish i could see snow..^-^

Christmas eve..

2011-12-24T22:00:00.000-08:00

went to meet my boy..^-^ hees..

didnt expect to have someone to celebrate Christmas with..

but the weather sucks..>_< it rained..

yea on Christmas..>_< WHYYYYY!??!?!??!

anyways..

am super happy to meet him can..:DD hees..

we're both hungry..>_<

shops & restuarants starts to close..& it's raining outside..

we have no where to go..

but luckily i brought my umbrella along..^-^

wanted to take bus to suntec city there but too many people..

so, our last resort is to use the umbrella & get ourselves half wet..-_-

but it's quite romantic though..HAHAHAAHAHA!!! *shy*

i remembered my first date at the zoo..

it rained too..

but this time, the one who holds me and the umbrella is a different person..

then, i realized my memories of me & my ex started to fade..

i dont even remember how my ex held me that day at the zoo cos i dont think i even hug my ex..

only putting my hand around his arm i guess..

cos my ex likes it that way..

but as for him, he hold me at my shoulders bringing me close to him under my small & flimsy umbrella..

it felt so..real.:))

then, i don't know i felt safe, & i just smiled under my breath..

without him knowing cos i don't want to think i'm a prevert or something..HAHA!!! >_<

he brought me to a open space "hawker" and eat..

i forgot what's the name but it's beside a club..

it's my first time not eating in a restaurant for this month..heh

cos i don't really like eating in a super hot & warm hawker center..>_<

but this is different as it's raining..

ate hokkien noodles ( bascially prawn noodles ), while he ate carrot cake with oyster.

he ordered mussles also and satay after that..

yea lots of food uh..yes..A LOT!!!

and that's our supper..Opps >_<

yes..to me, supper = FAT!!!! >_<

but for him, i'm okay with it..

maybe try not to eat too much the next day..

haha..

gave him his Christmas present then cabbed home..^-^

had a great Christmas this year..^-^

hopefully i can also have my Christmas with him next year again..^-^

but yeap..

more hopes = more disappointments..

so we'll wait & see..^-^

hees..

& MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE TO ALL!!! ^-^

Movie date with buddy..:DD

2011-12-23T00:42:00.000-08:00

met buddy at chua chu kang..
suppose to go out with xiaosi & samantha but inthe end xiaosi couldn't make it so only meet samantha..:DD

gave her her christmas present..^-^
so glad that she likes it..^-^
then she felt so guilty that she treat me a movie..haha..so cute of her..
we watched "we bought a zoo"..
that movie is quite nice..
quite touching..cos kept crying at the ending part..>_< haha..

after that went to eat at ichiban sushi..:DD
hees..my favourite..:DDDD
SUSHI!!!! yums yums..

had a great day today..:DDD

Christmas party..:DDD

2011-12-17T09:49:00.000-08:00

bestie invited me to her mini family christmas gathering..^-^

was late cos i met buddy before that for lunch..

ate ice cream, chatted..

had a great time spent with her..:DDD

anyways..

appreciated that bestie invited me to her house..:DD

had a great time there..

the food, the ambience, the family..

the laughter & chatters of the people,

totally..in the christmas mood..^-^

the food was great!! :DD

yums..

ham, turkey, the soup, salad, macaroni..^-^

after dinner some played wii while nicolette, kay (her friend) & me went to her room and did our pedicure & menicure..haha!!!
kay love to paint nails so she helped nicolette & me to paint our nails..haha

took some photos & of course not forgetting her boy..HAHAHA!!!

Me, Kay & Nicolette..:DD

very first time to open class..:DD

2011-12-16T09:00:00.001-08:00

went to open class with mei today..^-^

both of us felt super nervous..HAHA!!

cos is like those people who joins open classes are pros..haha

overall the lesson is great..^-^

though i danced quite horrible, someday i'll improve..^-^

hees..

& no need to say, my meii got the talent..^-^

love her do her body wave..haha!!!

she can dance those sexy dance quite well if she's more open..

(haha!!! don't shy lah!!!)

teehee..^-^

after for so long..❤

2011-12-10T08:38:00.000-08:00

kbox with lucky star today..

like finally..

it have been so long we last met..

i think like few months back?

haha..

met at 2 plus, went to kbox at cineleisure..

sing sang sung..

cam-whored..

chatted..

then dinner..^-^

great time spent today..^-^

Let's get buttered..:D

2011-12-07T08:09:00.000-08:00

yeap!!

it's ladies night again..:DDD

now, i've been looking forward to every Wednesday..haha

cos it's clubbing day..:DDD

weee!!!!

went to Butter Factory with him today at Fullerton Hotel..:DD

he wanted to go Power House to meet my friends but i insist going to Butter Factory cos i wanna take a look there..:DD

& yea..

it's quite small & when it's midnight, the room is like super packed..>_<

we don't even have space to dance..-__-

super squeezy & the que is like super long just to get a drink for ladies..

so he exchanged his coupon for 3 drinks..

dink drank then went to the dance floor to dance..:DD

around 1 plus, we went to the nearest MacDonald for supper..hees

then wanted to walk to Marina Bay Sands but he gave up cos it's too far away & he's tired..HAHA!!!!

weak..cheyyyy...

cabbed home & yeap.:DD

had a great night..^-^

sakae with bestest buddy!!! :DD

2011-12-04T08:41:00.001-08:00

meet buddy for brunch & chat session at sakae again :DDD

had cravings for sushi recently..HAHA!!!

so called her up & asked her out for lunch..:DD

as usual, we did lots of catching up while eating..^-^

love talking to her..& we always talk nonsense..HAHA!!

glad that we're getting along well now..^-^

It's another girly affair..^-^

2011-11-30T04:10:00.000-08:00

yeap!!! it's Wednesday again!!!

WOOHOO!!! party time..:DDD

haha!!! this time did not manage to take any photos..>_<

am late..>_< heh..

meet Ben at Bouna Vista then headed to vivo city to meet Dusty, Saiful & Ray..:DD

my clique of friends are suppose to celebrate a birthday but unfortunately, the birthday girl cannot go..

so we went to party without her..>_<

went to our usual spot..

gallery bar..

drank tequila pop..:DD

taste really bad..but the feeling is great after drinking it..HAHA!!!

all was feeling high so went to the dance floor..

i swear we had fun on the dance floor..haha!!!

thou i don't really know how to dance, i just bounce & shake & yea..of course not forgetting to act as if you're drunk..HAHA!!! awkward max but fun..>_< haha..

after that my friends are drunk..-_-

haha..they puked & puked so went home around 1 plus 2am..haha

♥♥♥♥♥..

2011-11-28T23:30:00.000-08:00

meet him for super early dinner at novena..:D

had texs chicken..

& yea..we thinks that KFC is much more better..haha

after our super early dinner, bus-ed down to marina square..

since it's still early so he decided to watch The Adventures of Tin Tin..:DD

the movie is nice..(Y)

though i've read that comic before..

after movie, walked to Marina Bay Sands to send him off for work..^-^

then train-ed home..:DD

hees..

sushi tei !!!

2011-11-26T19:04:00.000-08:00

meet my bestest buddy for brunch today..^-^

super eggcited..

it have been such a long time i last saw her..>_<

went to have sushi at sushi tei..:DD

hees..

try out some new food..

hmmm not that bad..

chit chatted..:D

have loads of stuff to say..

haha!!!!

she shared with me about her school life & all..

and of course i shared mine too..^-^

felt super happy when talking to her..

& she's as usual..

weird character..

haha..

that's what i loved about her..

being weird..just like me..HAHA!!!!

anyways..

had a great brunch & chatting session with her..^-^

after brunch, went home & headed to work..

haha..sushi again..^-^

hees!!

last lesson of hiphop lll..

2011-11-25T00:29:00.000-08:00

oh man!!! today is the last lesson of hiphop 3 & of course will not stop my dance here..

am gonna continue street jazz..:))

but the beginner class has already started..

so mei & i decided to wait for the next date..

while waiting, we're thinking to go for the open class..:))

though the show case is not so prepared due to the shortage of time, we did a great job..:D

had loads of fun..:DD

all the memories throughout hiphop 1-3 will always be remained..:))

Last time..

2011-11-24T22:45:00.000-08:00

suppose to meet my friends for Immortals today..

but 2 of my friends overslept cos of club yst so it has been postponed..

so he texted & ask me if wanna meet up for Immortals..so i said okay cos since he wanna watch also..:D so accompanied him..^-^

went to The Cathay to catch the movie..

the movie is great..(Y)

Love the Gods in the movie..

& the female lead is like super hot can!!!! ^-^

after the movie, he went to work while i go home..^-^

he took a cab to work due to the rain & drop me off at the mrt station..

& Contracts ends today for the 2nd time..

haha..

bid goodbye & the contract is extended..LOL!!!!

anyways had a nice day today...^-^

It's Wednesday!!!!! Let's pop..HAHAHA!!! ♥

2011-11-23T05:33:00.000-08:00

Let's Party!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥

It's a Wednesday today!!

He's off today so asked me out to club..^-^

& since it's a ladies night, & entrance fee & drinks are free for all ladies so i agreed to go..haha

Just nice my friends are going also..:))

so..

meet him outside vivo city..

then walked to St James Power Station together..

then meet my friends inside..

didn't know there's this door which will lead to another room..:))

though it's a smoking area, but it's not crowded..^-^

chilled, talked & drink there..

had my virgin tequila pop..^-^

haha..

the alcohol actually taste like sprite..^-^

but my friends say it taste awful..haha!!!

he puked..

LOL!!!

&& am super happy that i did not puke or get sick though i only drink 2 cups & already drunk but but i enjoyed myself that night..^-^

woohoo!!!

after all the drinking, went to the dance floor..

then to the smoking area..

chilled there for awhile..

my friends continue their dancing while me & him stayed at the smoking area & chat..^-^

we decided to leave at 3am..

time flies..

& it's 3am..

at first my friends wanted to have "supper" at the food republic, they ended up going home..HAHA!!!

so he & i shared a cab home..^-^

had a great night out today..:))

Happy Feet 2..^-^ ♥

2011-11-19T22:54:00.000-08:00

my zilian photo at the end of the day...♥

didn't know i am actually pretty..:))

HAHA!!!! (self-praise)

went to marina square to meet a friend today..

an awkward meeting for the very first time..HAHA!!

meet him at the ticket booth..

didn't know what he looked like..

so just stand there and wait for him..

then suddenly come this guy..

he appears from no where then started to walk in circles around me..

haha!!

weird uh..

anyways..

wanted to watch Immortals but running out of seats so decided to watch Happy Feet 2 instead..:))

*Happy* hees..

the movie that i've wanted to watch..^-^

those baby penguins in the movie are super cuteee..^-^

haha..

the rapping, dancing & the singing by the penguins are awesome!!!! (Y)

fell in love with penguins after watching Happy Feet..^-^

hees..

after movie walked to Marina Bay Sands with him then he's off to work while i went home..^-^

B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L..

2011-11-15T20:19:00.000-08:00

Try dragging this picture & see what will happen..:))

Jayley & Hayley..:D

2011-11-14T23:32:00.000-08:00

have been reading this particular blog..

& she's JAYLEY ( click on her name to read her blog ) !!!! :D

she's a great blogger & she dared to dream..

she had such a great attitude & her fashion is like WOW!!!!

yes..WOW!!!

&& she's 1 year younger than me..*gosh*

she's like impressive luh!!! (Y)

She & her twin sister are my favourite blogger..:D

&& they studied at the same school as me..:)))

hees..

i guess some even knew her cos she appeared on tv..:D

a tv programme about blogger & there she is..:D

i can say she dares to dream..

unlike me..

>__<

dare to dream but don't dare to put in action..

she had attended many events & photo shoots..

& made me feel interested in trying out photo shoots too..:DDD

haha but the thing is that i'm not as pretty as her & i don't have a nice figure like her too..>__<

it'll be great if i can do something new like collaboration or something..haha

but i've got ZERO experience though..

there are people who pm-ed my on facebook to do some photo shoots for them but i don't dare to accept because i'm not actually exactly how i look like in my pictures..LOL

i have zits on my face!!!!! >___<

& i'm fat..*urgh*

&& i'm afraid it's some spam thingy then yea..sigh..

such a wimp..-___-

any ways, am willing to try out if i got the chance..:D

hees..

i've grown older & everything must try right!!! haha

nothing can be done if i'm being like so afraid of this & that..hmm

jiayous ROLINDA!!!!! :D

awww...isn't he sweet..^-^

2011-11-13T22:56:00.000-08:00

那些年，我們一起追的女孩..♥.

2011-11-12T22:24:00.000-08:00

met ahyi for lunch at sakae sushi ..:D

love those salmon sashimi..*drools*

my all time favourite..SALMON SASHIMI!!!! ♥♥♥

after lunch, watched this awesome movie with ahyi...

wanted to watch this movie alone but in the end since ahyi is having her leave so i asked her out..

at the same time go shop for my heels..:D

the movie was really AWESOME!!!!!

cried during some of the parts as it reminds me of my first love..

hmmm..

‎"恋爱最美好的是暧昧的时候"..

yeap..this is totally true..

in a relationship, honeymoon period is always the sweetest..

the ending is quite sad..

there's this sentence i don't really agree with it..

it says, loving someone is to see them happy..

but if you really love someone, what they're hoping for is YOU to make them happy..

you DON'T see them being happy..

even so, they're happy is not because of you as they found someone who really can make them happy & bring them happiness..

so yeap..

actually other than sad part, there are some funny scene as well..

it'll actually make you laugh until you tear..

haha!!!

so those who haven't watch, GO & WATCH NOW NOW NOW!!!! :DD

after movie, bus-ed to far east to shop..

then Pontian noodle for dinner..:D

yum yums..

&& HAPPY SISTERHOOD DAY TO MY BELOVED MEII !!!!! LOVE HER LOADS!!!! ♥.♥.♥.♥.♥.♥.

I must learn to be positive..^0^

2011-11-11T23:56:00.000-08:00

shall blog about positivity today..:)

hmmm i'm a girl who can be positive & negative..

i'm an insecure girl as i would think negative about myself..

Especially when i see another girl who is more attractive than me, i'll like of look down on myself & envy her instead but i know it's a BIG NO NO to feel this way..

so, sometimes i'll say something positive to encourage myself so that it can feel better..heh >_<

i don't know if i'm being too humble or what..

but i just find other girls are better than me & i'm like just ordinary girl/just another girl that no one notice..sad uh..haha

any ways, i must really really learn to be more positive so that i can be a more happy person..:D

so yeap..today is 11/11/11..

what are you wishing for?? :D

hmm..my wish for 11/11/11 is simple..

everyone in this world to be happy..:D

When you’re staring at your crush and he/she looks back at you..

2011-11-10T00:02:00.000-08:00

isn't this hedgehog cute..:D

HAHA!!!

yeap i guess when you’re staring at your crush and he/she looks back at you, you'll be like this hedgehog..

haha..*blush*

I've learnt to live half a life..

2011-11-09T02:20:00.000-08:00

Just like what mei have been telling me..

When in a relationship, the first or second month is called as the honeymoon period because it is always the sweetest period..

Indeed its true..

that first and a half month is my most happiest moment in my life..(:

& after that it's totally horrendous..

after that honeymoon period, i'm like living in hell..

he made me totally numb now..

good & bad..

good : i'm no longer the naive Rolinda..(:

bad : i've no more feelings but i'm able to make myself happy & free again..(:

he made me grow & of course worked harder for myself & of course love myself more..(:

I won't let him make me forget the value of myself, that i'm special & deserve to be treated with respect too..(:

mei & my girlfriends kept telling me that i can't go on torturing myself by keeping & trying so hard to keep this relationship going & they said that i deserve someone better..

i'm so stubborn that i ignored their kind advise that lead me to become so devastated..

i'm really sorry & i'm thankful for having them throughout my sad moments..

i LOVEEEE them loads..♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

i think i can't pull through this without them..(:

last but not least..

all the best to me..(:

JIAYOU ROLINDA!!!! ^-^

Just as i knew it..

2011-11-08T00:16:00.000-08:00

yeap..

i'm right..

but you lied..

anyways..

everything is really over & i'm moving on..

sad, heartbroken but life still have to move on right? :)

yeap..

many things are going through my mind while showering this morning..

did some self-reflection while showering & realised everything seems to make sense now..:)

i was like why do i do this to just make my life so miserable after all this shit..

i finally realised everything do makes sense now..

all this are fake..& he didn't even make me his official..

plus i put in too much in all this & i did my best..:D

the happy thing is i'm glad i didnt just try to be a Nice GF..

i DO my best to be his GF & i guess i didn't work out for him..

yes..to me, he is the one but to him, i'm not..

so even if i tried to talk sense to him or cry my heart out or beg him,

i wont get his feelings back..

& by doing this, it makes me feel like a dog or some desperate woman..

haha..

luckily i didn't do all this shit..

i'm glad that we used to be together because even though It was only for a moment, it's okay. As it was exactly what I wanted..^-^

so yeap..am thankful for that short period of time..

because of him, he made me experience what is heartbroken & how it feels like being toyed with by a guy..

this experience have made me learnt not to fall in love so easily & deeply & not to trust so easily (especially sweet talkers)..

& yes it hurts damn bad..T^T

he's happy now as he found someone he truly love most & i'm glad for him..

i've got nothing to say but just wish him all the best & he can approach me whenever he needs a friend or a listener or an advisor..:) haha..

yup..but still i just hope that he can grow up mentally & not let his family worried about him..

i know i'm in no stand to care about him any more but yup, am born to be caring so....yea..am kind-hearted..haha..^-^

&&& before i end..

HAPPY 1st MONTH TO ME..:D

shall head to bed now..

goodnight everyone..(:

Q.T : j tujmm mpwf zpv

2011-11-07T19:19:00.000-08:00

gpvoe pvu tpnfuijoh gvo up qmbz xjui..iziz

feeling confused eh..

haha..

anyways..

had a great time meeting kathleen today thou its only for a few hours..

accompanied her to search for her tank top..

had a great time chatting with her while shopping for her tank top..haha

sigh..

guess all my girlfriends are right..

i shouldn't hold on any more..

he's not mine any more thou i keep hopping so..

it's hard..super hard..>_<

sigh..

it's really saddening that i gave love a chance, i trust in love again but..

i loved the wrong one..Again..instead i got myself badly hurt..yes Again..>_<

and yes Again..i'm back to my shell & will never come out i guess..

this time for real..it's gonna be difficult guys..

am sorry but i'm trying to protecting myself from getting hurt again..

i dont want & can't go through this torment again..

& yeap..hoping at the same time..unless things changed..heh

i wont regret anything as i did my best & i have what i've always long wanted so yeap..

i dont know why..

whenever i want to give up, a little voice of me told me to hold on & wait, give him some time..

maybe he is "meant" for me but i'm not meant for him..

haha..in my dreams..yea i dream a lot..

like those fairy tales & happily ever after & those "he's my first & my last"..

nah..everything is just a story..i feel so silly back then..

haha..read too much fairy tales or watched too much movies..

this earth is reality & reality is not as fantasy as in real life..haha

but it just made me feel lonelier..

plus Christmas & New Year is coming & i have to celebrate this special season alone..yes Again..T^T

Pathetic much uh..

yea..i didnt see it coming so early either..

i have many plans planned ahead..

Christmas with him, counting down to 2012 with him, watching the beautiful fireworks in his arms this year & my first Valentine's day with him & etc..

oh wells..have to forgo all this now..

sad but true..T^T

its the reality..

sometimes i heard people say that things will change to the better & the wait is worthwhile if you don't give up..

i didn't cos i believe..(:

even if left with 0.01%, i still wanna give it a try..

yea i know it'll hurt me but i just dont care..

stubborn..-__-

okay..my mei gonna knock me on the head if she reads this..heh >_<

i know i'm stubborn, silly & learn things the hard way..

erm..real hard that kind..heh..>_<

cos yea..i still can't convinced myself..T^T

my mei so gonna kill me after she reads this..heh..>_<

oops..

yea..my close friends have seen it & felt it except me..

sigh..

it is indeed blind..>_<

jiayous bahx..

this silly girl is still hoping & waiting..heh

Q.T : j tujmm mpwf zpv..

Cool or what? hmm..♥

2011-11-06T23:33:00.000-08:00

45 things to be happy about..^-^

2011-11-05T22:59:00.000-07:00

Bold the happy things that i’ve experienced before:)

1. Falling in love.

2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.

3. A hot shower.

4. No lines at the supermarket.

5. A special glance.

6. Getting mail.

7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.

8. Hearing your favourite song on the radio.
9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.

10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.

11. Chocolate milkshake … (or vanilla … or strawberry!)

12. A bubble bath.

13. Giggling.
14. A good conversation.
15. The beach

16. Finding a 20-pound note in your coat from last winter.

17. Laughing at yourself.

18. Eye contact with a hot member of the opposite sex.

19. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.

20. Running through sprinklers.

21. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
22. Having someone tell you that you’re beautiful/good looking.
23. Laughing at an inside joke.
24. Friends.

25. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.

26. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
27. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).

28. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.

29. Playing with a new puppy.

30. Having someone play with your hair.
31. Sweet dreams.
32. Hot chocolate.

33. Road trips with friends.

34. Swinging on swings.

35. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.

36. Making chocolate chip cookies (and eating them…!).

37. Having your friends send you homemade cookies.

38. Holding hands with someone you care about.

39. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change.

40. Watching the expression on someone’s face as they open a much-desired present from you.

41. Watching the sunrise.

42. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.

43. Knowing that somebody misses you.

44. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply.
45. Knowing you’ve done the right thing, no matter what other people think.

i've experienced all this..(:

& it really feels AWESOME!!! especially with someone we care..:D

how about you? (:

what is love?

2011-11-04T00:38:00.000-07:00

What exactly is love?

How do you define love?

Hmmmm..to me..

Love does not exist..

Love is just a word that replace a feeling..

According to a person, feelings fade..

Love = feeling & feelings fade = love is no longer there.

:'(

does he?

2011-11-03T22:00:00.000-07:00

sushi tei dinner & dance..:D

2011-11-02T01:33:00.000-07:00

woots..

first time having a D&D..(:

i know i'm kinda kuku..but yup..

my very first D&D..haha >_<

nice food & programmes..(:

here are the pics..(:

China Square Central outlet..(:

my supervisor..Danny..(: he's a super nice supervisor..(Y)

chef eric & me..(:

ah wai & the part-timers..(:

Benjamin, Joscelin & me..( i got the most rounded face..-__-)

Joscelin, Alex, a chef & me..

Yan Khee (the lady beside me..^-^) & part-timers..:D we loved her!!! ♥

ah wai & me..

the 2 bestest friends..but to us they're like a couple..haha!!

lastly, Junjie & me..>u<

bye october, hello november..

2011-11-01T00:58:00.000-07:00

November please be a good month for me..

i've been through a hard & tough one last month..:'(

Then Christmas & New year is gonna be lousy as well unless Santa makes my Christmas wish come true..>_<

so November..i need you to be nice to me..^-^

I'm just asking for this month to be good..

i'm not asking for too much right? :(

happy halloween!! :D

2011-10-30T03:26:00.000-07:00

its Halloween!!! :D

so what is everyone gonna be?

a vampire, zombie, angel, police woman/man etc..?

haha..

watched Footloose with junjie at Vivo before going to PH..

it's not so awesome movie cos most of the part is just talking & blah..

i just loved the dancing part in that movie..

but only like few scene..

anyway..

went to PowerHouse after movie..

found a space..

then ordered 1 for 1..(;

drink, drank, drunk..-__-

met few new frens..(:

worst clubbing day ever..>_<

puked..wth!!

super hate it..

cos i dont drink to puke..argh!!

it's only 12 plus i guess & i felt ultra sick..

it's a terrible feeling man..>_<

rested in the restroom not caring if the que is long or not..

i just feel like taking a nap inside the restroom..

haha..oops >_<

felt quite guilty for not opening the door for junjie's fren..x/

appreciated much..

but i just couldn't move & i don't wanna be seen feeling so weak..>_<

so yea..hmm..

quickly went home once i felt ok..

took a cab home..

& i felt so guilty that i invited junjie out but in the end i left him there..:(

oh man..>_<

but i guess he would make some new frens or went to find his frens there..

hope he had a great time there with his frens..

hmmm..thou it's only like few hours, i had a great halloween..(:

thankyou..(:

day 17..

2011-10-25T09:42:00.000-07:00

its the 17th day..

i'm still hoping..

i wanted to give up but something inside just tell me to wait..

i dont know why..

but..

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I just want to hold you, I just want to kiss you. I just want to love you all my life ♥

i dont know why but..

2011-10-22T21:41:00.000-07:00

no matter what..

i'm still hanging..

i'm waiting..

its gonna be a lonely christmas & new year again..:'(

sigh..

why me!?!?!

i wanna...

2011-10-21T22:24:00.000-07:00

i wish that we'll play like little kids..

i wanna hug you like there's only you & me..

i wanna marry you cos i'm your princess & u're my prince..

& i wanna grow old with you..

torturous week..

2011-10-10T22:23:00.000-07:00

sigh..

torturous week for me..

he left, and i'm left with piles of assignments to complete..

is like all of a sudden, a bridge just collapse on me..

i can hardly breathe, i need someone..

suddenly everything just gone..

everything that i wished,

everything that i hoped,

everything that i've always wanted..

everything just sped past me just like that..

sad..

but at least we're still friends..

cried while thinking of him and at the same time rushing my assignments..

i dont know how to do!!!!!

thats the saddest part..>_<

feeling sick but no choice..

have to force myself to rush assignments..

a lesson learnt..

no last minute work..*heh*

am so lucky i still have my mei..:D

she helped & guided me throughout the whole assignments & i'm grateful for that..:D

from now on..

i must work even harder..^-^

*woosh*

a new begining..a new chapter..

2011-10-09T00:34:00.001-07:00

จากชีวิตคนไม่มีใครคนหนึ่ง...

เริมวันนี้..

เศร้าใจมาก แต่ไม่มีทางเลือก..

but i believe..:)

am not giving up..

unless.....

the end of the chapter..

2011-10-08T10:19:00.000-07:00

many things happen lately..

have been depressed, hurt, sad, cried..

really a rocky month for me & its tough i can say..

really tough..>_<

met bf for movie..(:

like finally..we've been meeting each other rarely these days..

cos of his fyp..

so yup..

travelled all the way to Pasir Ris..

watched Real Steel..

the movie was nice..:D

then had dinner with bf..

after that chatted..

heart to heart talk..

finally got my answer..

thou its really hurt but..

yea..i expected it..

so i'm sort of 'mentally prepared' to accept it..

so yeap..

cried hard..-_-

cried until i cant talk properly,

cried until i cant breathe properly,

cried until i'm all feeling sick,

cried until feeling so giddy..

silly me uh..

to ppl out there maybe its just a r/s but to me its not just a r/s but sth tat i truly cherish close to my heart..

thought i would celebrate my 21st birthday with bf next year & of course my very first Valentine's Day with him cos our monthsary falls on the 14th..

but yup..guess i'm gonna celebrate Valentine's Day alone again..pathetic uh lol..

thou its very saddening but things ended well..i guess..

we're still friends & i think its better for him this way..

hmm..keep those memories (hugs & kisses, holding of hands, his smiles, his perfume etc..) & life gotta move on..

back to single life,

back to being alone,

back to envy ppl again..thou i've been envying ppl all along..lol

no more celebrating special occasion with other half,

no more sweet texts,

no more morning texts & night calls,

phone is gonna be silent from tmr onwards,

no more hugs & kisses,

no more holding of hands,

smiles turn to neural,

no more dressing up,

only me & my music..

only me & dance..

tats all i have now..

suddenly i have this smell of his perfume..LOL

i'm such a weirdo..haha..

anyways..no point crying over someone who has no more feelings for me but gotta move on strongly..

in a r/s, love cannot be forced..

once the feeling is not there, no matter how hard one tries to maintain it, it'll not be there..

i cant do anything much also but to accept the fact..so yeap..

am sure gonna missed those days where we go for zoo dates, that giraffe thingy, staying over night at my place, tat warm cuddle under the blanket, tat sound of the heartbeat of urs, the hugs tat we gave to each other, almost everything tat i'm gonna missed..:'( thou we're still frens but theres some things friends cant do when we're tgt..

hmmm..

felt quite sad tat i didnt manage to give him a one last hug before he left cos i'm crying & idk what to do & what am i doing or thinking..:(

anyways, everything have ended & we're still friends..

so its not so bad afterall..

i dont blame him for anything but instead, i thank him for loving me once & i thank him for all those happy moments tat we had tgt..

maybe its my fault tat i cant give him what he wanted..

or i'm not as pretty as those girls,

or i'm not as hyperactive as he want me to be..

对不起，我不够好。。so yup..

..anyways..its the end of the chapter..

& tmr shall be a new begining of my single life..

sad but life have to move on..(:

its really tough but i can pull through this right?

hmm..JIAYOUS ROLINDA!!!!

i thought everything is gonna be okay soon..

2011-10-07T11:28:00.000-07:00

have been trying hard to make myself not to think too much..

i've used to being back to my old self,

i've used to being alone again,

i've used to not getting texts from him alr,

i've used to you not calling me dear or baobei & those sweet texts,

i've used to not expecting ur replies..

used to being single all again..

even though i got a bf..

its good alr tat i even Knew tat i had one..

used to his busy-ness..

until he has no time for me..

but have time for his frens..:(

sigh..sad max..

if he can have time to chill with his frens,

i rather choose to be his fren rather than his girlfriend..

cos i dont even feel like i'm his girlfriend..

oh wells..:'((

what can i do??

i have a boyfriend but like i dont have one..

so whats the diff..

thou i might seems like i dont care but inside of me is tearing apart..

it hurts so badly..

i just want to cry..

& he dont even care..

what can i do??

i really dont know..

does he really still love me?

or his love for me has alr expired..?

all i can do is to envy those ppl who are ard me..

why?

why me?

why envy?

i thought envy ppl is not a good thing?

i envy ppl with a happy family,

i envy ppl with a complete family,

i envy ppl who have someone to love..

& tat someone would love them back..:((

sigh..

basically i envy abt everything tat ppl have & i dont have..-_-

weird..

hmmm..guessed its just my life..

i have to accept it right?

sigh..:'(

i thought i'm the happiest girl in the world..

but...ya..i'm wrong..:'(

& i ended up being lonelier than ever..:'(

sigh...

ya I THOUGHT..:'(

{ PS : 忙碌，开始变成习惯，习惯没有时间，我们像陌生人不再关心谁的明天。。}

Bleeding..

2011-09-18T11:00:00.000-07:00

still crying..

head start to ache..>_<

& blah blah..

you still wouldnt careless..

sad to the max..

sometimes it just felt this way..

2011-09-17T10:03:00.000-07:00

cried alittle again in the morning..

i seriously dont know what to do..

got a text from bf..

dono to be happy or not..

hmm..

missed him alot but maybe he just dont realised it..

same shit happens again..

eye swollen..

have to send brother off to airport at 5pm..

mei came..

luckily i still have her..

so nice of her to just come & accompany me to send my brother off..

no matter what..

i'm still thankful tat i got her..

went pizza hut for dinner..

then train-ed home..

as usual..

missed bf alot..

was waiting for his text but just received some..

hmm..

i wish i could communicate with him more..

but yea..

i guess i just dont understand him..

played a prank on him..

he got real mad..

hmm..

sometimes i knew i went too far..

but i did those is simply just want to get his attention..

reached home ard 9 plus..

still no text from bf..

he sure is mad like hell..sigh..

cried again..

i just feel like crying, dono why..

at some point of time, i'll just stone then suddenly my tears just flow down from my cheeks..

i'm crying again..unknowingly..

its alr 3 plus am..still no replies..

i'm desperate..

i just feel like i'm living a single life..

or worst..

i felt neglected,

i felt tat i'm not important,

i felt tat i'm not cared by you anymore,

i felt tat i'm a burden to you,

i felt useless,

i felt tat i only bring you trouble & stress to you..

this feeling sucks..

& am crying again..:'(

i'm just really really hurt..

i dont know what to do..

now..

my head hurts like hell..

am not gonna think anymore..

maybe i'm too paranoid..sigh..

:'(

dance..

2011-09-16T10:03:00.000-07:00

dance lesson is super hectic today..

super "hiong"..

LOL..

changed of instructor cos an an went to japan..

so another instructor replaced her..

new dance steps by the new instructor is quite furious..

cant catch it the first few times..

but slowly, i got hold of the steps..:)

weeee........

did not meet dearest lately..

cos he's busy with his projects..

& it made me misses him like mad..>_<

i cant help it..

cried at night before i sleep cos i miss him so much it hurts..

i bet he didnt know abt it..

hmm..

he's out with his frens for dinner then gaming sessions after that..

glad tat he's chilling out..

but..i felt like i was totally left out..-_-

its super depressing tat i'm waiting for his texts but nth came..

felt emo then yea..

as usual..

cry..-_-

i just dono what to do but to cry my heart out..

i need someone to be here but i've no one..:(

i dont know where is he,

i dont know what he's doing,

i dont know anything..

i just felt useless..

quarrelled abit..

i just..i dont know..

i'm just confused at times..

i dont know what to do..

i...really dont know.............

its our 3rd..:))

2011-09-14T22:36:00.000-07:00

meeting dearest at his sch today..:)

so sweet of him suggesting to meet up today for a short date..:))

cos did not expect tat he would ask due to his hectic work..

gave him his 3rd mth gift then headed to AMK Hub..:D

watched "The Smurfs"..:D

nice movie..:D

then dinner at pepper lunch after that..:D

home sweet home after that..

am sooo happy spending time with him..

how i wish i could meet him often..hmm

I SMURF YOU!!!! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

lantern festival..:((

2011-09-12T08:49:00.000-07:00

went to look for dearest at his sch..

miss him alot!!!

but he looks super stressed out..:(

*heart hurts* seeing him in this manner..

no smiles but frowning..-_-

hmm..always like to keep things to himself..

hope one day he can be more open to me..>_<

alot went through my mind..

went fb..

all my frens went to play lantern & candles & sparkles with her bf but not me..

i felt quite depressed..

they had fun but just not me..LOL

emo-ed for awhile, cried abit then..

got an unexpected text from dearest saying "am so happy tat you came" with the "weee" behind..

LOL..i felt tat was alittle fake but..

it warmed my heart..

was waiting for his text..^-^

& yeap..

had a good night..:)

so everything tat i missed out today was kind of forgiven..

hmmm..

sighh..

2011-09-11T08:55:00.000-07:00

war at home..:((

feeling so sad & lost..

how i wish you were here to hold me..

fruitful & meaningful early sisterhood day..:D

2011-09-10T08:46:00.000-07:00

went to do volunteering with mei today cos suddenly dearest is sick..

so worried for him ttm..

sick still wanna meet up..x/

asked him to stay at home & rest instead..

wanted to go to his house to visit him & keep him accompany but his mom need to do sth so didnt go..he can have plenty of rest too..:D

train-ed to sengkang then bus-ed to the destination..

had a great time with mei today..:D

totally enjoyed myself..:D

LOVE MEI LOADS!!! ♥♥♥♥♥

niece turns 6..:D

2011-09-06T08:49:00.000-07:00

went to meet bf at cityhall..:D

travelled to tiong baru with bf to ahyi house..:D

ate zhu chao..:D

bf first time meeting daddy.:D

hees..

& also first time dinner-ing with dad..:))

after that went up to ahyi house for cake cutting..:D

then home sweet home..:D

meet dearest..

2011-09-05T08:48:00.000-07:00

missed dearest alot..

so i cant hold my temptation..

went all the way to his sch just to see him..

BEST DAY EVER!! :)

samantha is here..:D

2011-08-30T08:43:00.000-07:00

meeting samantha in the noon for lunch at wcp..

then headed to sheng siong to buy some snacks while watching the movie..:D

watched a thai movie called "suckseed"..

time really flies when we're having fun..

after that went to clementi mall walk walk..

chatted..

then send her off to wait for her bus..:))

finally a proper date..:D

2011-08-29T09:22:00.000-07:00

finally manage to go out with dearest..

felt super happy can..^-^

meet boyfriend at orchard..

went to far east for his haircut..

after that went to have our early dinner at ayam phyet or sth..forgot how to spell that..

nice fried chicken plus very shiok chilli..:D

yums yums!!!! ^0^

then dearest treat me the "roadside" ice cream..:D

have sudden craving for that..:D hees..

happy girl..

headed to 313 somerset to see if my shoes have any sales..but sadly the price is still the same..>_<

walked to Plaza Singapura..

hang ard there..

then home sweet home..:D

felt so happy when i'm with dearest..

& i'm really blessed to have him loving me so much..:D

& of course!!! i LOVE him too lots & lots of love..♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

*hees*

forever not good enough..:/

2011-08-28T12:37:00.000-07:00

working today again..

felt tat i've neglected my boyfriend..>_<

work is ok until at night..

hmm..

got said by that chef again..is like wtf lah!!

why me!!!

felt super accused again..

i'm just cant get it with the stupid tonkatsu & katsu don..fuck man!!

humans make mistakes right!!

& i did ask the customer that he wants only the cutlet only & he said yes..

wtf!! say chicken katsu don also cannot izzit!!!

cant blame the customers anyways..

they're always right..:/

ordered wrongly & i knew the stupid chef is going to make a fuss out of it..

felt so super pissed..

at myself also..

i feel like crying man..

he told the female supervisor to tell me tat the kitchen crew is very pissed abt it & want me to pay the food out of my own pocket..

wtf!! is like i go is to fucking work & EARN money..NOT spend the fucking money..

if really like tat, i rather dont work then spend my money just for one fucking mistake i did..

is like i'm so stupid lah!!

wtf..

i just cant get things right!!!

super feel like punching myself..

plus i super hate cheenas!!!

i'm short so what!!

do u think i want to be short!!!

u cheenas just fucking dont know how hurtful it is..dumb ass..

u arent tall as well..

so u fucking shut up & just do ur damn work..

this time i had enough..

i'm not bloody talking to anyone..

gonna shut myself up..

am only talking to those who helped me ONLY..

hmmm..

wipe away ur tears & smile..everything will be fine..:) i swear..

JIAYOUS ROLINDA!!!!

how i wish i can just go to bed & wakes up finding tat i'm tall, fair, slim, zits free & pretty the next morning..

i'm forever never going to be good enough..x/

cried again..:'(

2011-08-27T10:35:00.000-07:00

feeling lonely again..

hugged my pooh to sleep..

cant stop thinking..T^T

but suddenly received a morning text from boyfriend..

alil of me smiled inside..^-^

dance as usual..

2011-08-26T12:36:00.000-07:00

had dance lesson..:D

weet weet..:D

but after that not meeting dearie as he went for the IT training..

so yeap..after dance went to the wanton noodle shop for dessert as i'm not hungry..

kind of loss of appetite..maybe due to my period..-_- *argh*

yeap..after that alicia & mei stop by to buy nail polish..

was holding the temptation..

haha..

saving $$..-_-

*hmmm*

plus i dont always get the chance to polish my nails..

cos of work..sigh...

anyways, its okay..;))

cos it can help me save money too..haha..^-^

work with dearie..:D

2011-08-24T12:36:00.000-07:00

so happy that i'm working with dearest for the very first time..:D

working with boyfriend is sth that i can ever dream of..:B

hees..

after work, we hanged ard raffles place..

chit chat, played, laughed, hugged..:D

i love my boyfriend loads!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

cried T^T

2011-08-23T12:35:00.000-07:00

cried today..

didnt really text bf much lately..

felt super emo..

felt like he's drifting away..

felt like he's not caring..

hmm..

am so lonely..

so lonely until i felt like sometimes, at a moment, i even can forget tat i alr got a bf..

if i dont wear his shirt or look at my wallpaper, i'll thought tat it was only just a dream..

i'm so silly right..hmm

i felt insecure..x/

everything is just running wild inside of my head..

i cant help it but tears just keep flowing down whenever i try not to think..

kana scolded humph

2011-08-21T12:35:00.000-07:00

worked today..

quite busy..

was in the middle section today & i'm like the only one watching over there..

the runner gave me the wrong slip, thus i served the food to the wrong table..

customer ask me why his chasyu ramen have no chasyu..

so i went to ask..

then i got shouted at by the chef inside..

was super pissed cos how would i know there's how many bowls of chasyu ramen in total!!

i'm not even inside..

was super pissed and felt accused by the chef..

i was so furious until my ears have turned red..

but since am working so i shall just take the blame & swallow it down..

hmm..super moody day at work..

i thought i enjoyed working..

but i was wrong now..:((

i'm working for the sake of working only..

anyways i must jiayous!!!!

just breathe & smile..:D

moses birthday chalet..

2011-08-20T12:34:00.000-07:00

left house ard 2 plus pm to meet Amelia at bugis to buy Moses's birthday decorations..

then met her friend, su ann..

then got our stuffs then headed to Eunos first then to Pasir Ris Coastal Sand Resort..

dear is there alr..

so excited to meet him..:D

haha..

left the chalet with dearest ard 11 plus i guess..

cos the last train has ended..>_<

so..

bus-ed to bedok then took a cab there home..

luckily the fare is not so ex..:D

phew..

love dear ttm..:D

T.G.I.F..:D

2011-08-19T00:00:00.000-07:00

woots!!!

dance as usual today..:D

haven start on the routine yet..

but still..

lesson is FUN as always..:D

hees..

after dance met dear as usual..:D

went to eat wanton noodle with mei & baodong..:D

yums..

after dinner, chatted with boyfriend..:D

walk walk..

then home sweet home..:D

love spending time with dearest..♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

went to dear's place & surprise him..hees

2011-08-15T11:08:00.000-07:00

had class in the afternoon..

was thinking what am i going to do after class..

so suddenly thought of boyfriend..

plus i didnt get to see him so often now..

misses him alot..

at first, i was thinking to buy bubble tea after class & enjoy it at home..

but instead, i've decided to go to boyfriend's place & surprise him..:D

hees..

after class, i left in a hurry, hoping that i can see him quickly..haha..

was quite worried that he's not at home & my trip to Bedok is a total waste..

thought i would get lost but in the end i managed to go to the right place..:D

MUAHAHA!!! *i'm a genius*

finally get to meet dear..:D

miss him soo soo much!!!
haha..

super hungry so went to bedok point for lunch..:D

had curry rice..:D

wee wee..happy girl..:DD

hees..

after that dear brought me to a provision shop..

was amazed by the stuffs there..

it got all the baking stuff & all..

its super cool lah..:D

somemore quite cheap..:D

hees..

then boyfriend accompanied me to wait for the bus..:D

then home sweet home..:D

dear's surprise failed..haha!!

2011-08-13T00:13:00.000-07:00

meeting dear today..

he said wanna give me a surprise but he failed..

LOL..

his surprise is that he's bringing me to watch "twisted"..:D

thou failed cos is i keep bugging him to watch..

but am happy cos can see him..:))

after movie, suppose to meet daddy for dinner but most of my workmates are sick so decided to change to other day..

dont wanna bring daddy & boyfriend go eat & ended up getting sick too..

so after movie, had duck rice for dinner..:D

yums...

first duck rice with deary..

cos have been eating restaurant when we're at town..

after dinner, went suntec wif boyfriend..

walk walk, chat chat then rested..

leg aching from all the long walks..haha..

went home ard 10pm plus..

dont wanna miss the last train..haha..

had a great day..:D

hiphop 2 !!! :D

2011-08-12T00:13:00.000-07:00

first lesson of hiphop 2..:D

weeeeee!!!!

super eggcited..:D

cos two of my frens signed up for hiphop 2 too..:D

happy happy..:D

learnt hand wave, recap body wave & steve martin..:D

after lesson..

meet deary..:D

misses him loads!!!

gave him a BIG teddy bear huggie..:D

haha..

had pasta mania for dinner with mei & bao dong..:D

after that, mei & baodong went home first..

while dear & me walked to Douby Ghaut as usual..

sat on the bench as usual..

chatted and stuff..:D

then ard 10 plus home sweet home..:D

had a great day today..:D

& not forgetting HAPPY SISTERHOOD DAY TO MY DEAREST XIAOMEI!!!! LUB LUB ALWAYS!!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

happy birthday singapore!!!

2011-08-09T00:13:00.000-07:00

dear & his sister's boyfriend went swimming on the skypark..

the view is super nice..:D

i regretted i didnt bring my swimsuit along..-_-

*regrets*

*argh*

his sister & her boyfriend went back to the room first..

hanged around with bf..

chatted..

then he said sth that hurts me..

felt so emo..x(

we sort of quarrelled..

sighs..always..

felt super hurt the way he treated me in front of his family..

oh wells..

anyways..

enjoyed my stay there..

thou his quite disappointing..

went to Marina Square to have our brunch..

had Burger King..:D

then meeting his friend & his gf for the National Day Parade right outside the Marina Bay Sand shopping mall..:))

the weather is blazing hot!!! xs

then at ard 6 plus, the parade starts..

super eggcited..:D

this year its alittle special..:D

cos this year am celebrating National Day with boyfriend..♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

had our hand painted..:D

this year's fireworks are so beautiful & its longer than previous year..:D

after that..

home sweet home..:D

marina bay sands!! :D

2011-08-08T08:34:00.000-07:00

dearest & me..:D

his sister & mom..:D

first day of sch today..:D

sooo happy tat i manage to go to diploma course..

thought would fail my marketing & business management paper..

haha..x/

school ended at 6.30pm then headed straight to raffles place to meet boyfriend..

staying at Marina Bay Sands with his family..

super excited..

but oh wells..

yups..

had dinner with his family & one of his sister's friend..

it was great..:D

then hang around..

then head to bed..

he got upset..-_-

& he behaved like a little kid whose mummy dont allow him to buy candy..

i was like what the..-_- LOLs much..-_-

last lesson of hiphop 1..

2011-08-05T23:39:00.000-07:00

today is the last lesson of hiphop 1..

cant wait for hiphop 2..:D

wonder how the lesson is going to be..hees..

as usual..

after lesson, dear meet me, mei & baodong for dinner..

had KFC for dinner..:D

yums..

didnt eat KFC for quite some time..

haha..

ate cheesy crunch with deary..:B

miss dear soooooooooooo much..x)

is like i only get to meet him like once or twice a week...x/

love my boyfriend..♥

>_<..

2011-08-03T23:39:00.000-07:00

i hate to be in the dark..>_<

it freaks me out..x/

this is what will happen when i'm alone in a room without any light..>_<

*ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh*

okkay..

nowadays i've been leaving my lamp on for the whole night..

cos am super afraid of the dark..>_<

*yikes*

when dad's at home, he'll like come into my room and off that lamp..

cos dad says the electricity is expensive..

but i'm sacred..>_<

heh..

told daddy that when i off the light, my room got lots of noises..

like plastic noises & stuff..

i just dont feel safe then i cant get to sleep..>_<

dad say that i think too much or i felt guilty inside cos i did sth bad..

but the thing is why got noises de..>_<

oh my tian..

so yeap..i'll still on my lamp every night & dad will switch it off when i fell asleep..heh..>_<

so..

are u guys afraid of the dark like i do??

love in a disney movie..

2011-08-02T00:56:00.000-07:00

isn't it cool if our life is like a disney movie?

cos............

It’ll happen unexpectedly

When I look at him it’ll give me butterflies.

It’ll be hard not to blush when I think of him.

He will be romantic.

We will go on wild adventures,

And never feel like we have to grow up.

____________________________________________________________________

went shopping yst @ vivo city..:D

went forever 21 in search for my "mature" dress for this Sunday's dinner with bf family..:))

super eggcited can..haha

so i choose carefully for that particular dress..

thou this month's design is not really what i liked but i have to try to change my taste right?

haha..no more "kiddy" clothing..

so....picked a nice tube dress with lots of little flowers on it..

thou its not really what i wanted but still..

i LOVE it..:D haha..

its quite affordable actually..compared to those at Bugis street..

mature clothings & i'm willing to spend a sum once in awhile so yeap..:D

am happy tat i found that dress like how i found my bf..*teehee*

went to topshop & zara & mango too..

but clothing from there, the prices are way over my budget..

all is like over 50 bucks..

49 is okay but for a dress..i'll feel heartache after tat..unless its a gown or sth very extraordinary..

haha..:))

my all times favourite shops are cotton on, rubi, forever 21 & newlook..

all my shoes are bought from there too..:D haha..

especially newlook & rubi..

forever cannot resist those heels!!! woohoo!!!

how i wish those rags of heels are mine..*drools*

but prices are super expensive in newlook..

got one heel that caught my eye the other day when i was out with bf..

but the heel is like 80 bucks..sad to the max..>_<

hope there'll be discounts..to like at least 60 bucks or 50..

then am gonna get that..:D *teehee*

*cant wait*

tats all peeps..:D

nites nites..:))

hmmm...

2011-08-01T20:34:00.000-07:00

"i love my 亲爱的。。♥"

meet ting ting in the morning to give her last min POA revision..

her exam is at 3.45pm so i meet her in the mac @ 10.30am..

ard 11 plus am, bought nuggets meal as brunch..

then ard 12pm they changed to the lunch promotion..

i was like wth!!! cheated my feelings..LOL..

seriously luh..

i bought the meal at $7.05 then the lunch meal is $4.50..

i can save alot!!! *argh*

so stupid of me..

oh wells..

learnt a lesson..hahas..

next tym i'll wait till 12pm then buy..haha!!

then hanged ard at the mall..

went to popular to buy some stuff..:D

bus-ed home..

stayed at home whole day..

then went back to clementi mall to buy groceries..

realised theres no more food in the refrigerator..>_<

after much shopping in the market, its time to go home & i'm hungry..>_<

like super hungry..

hahas..

at night msn-ed bf..

having dinner with his family this Sunday..

&& its his family asked me if i want to come along..^-^

super eggcited can..:D

haha..

but many not to dos from bf..

felt super sad..

i'm being me & he's telling me no to this not to that..

i understand that why he's being like that cos he knows his family best..

so i'll just follow & do whatever he says lorr..

i dont want to have a bad impression to his family too..

so yea..

thou its not me..

but i still have to be me right?

cos i dont want to be someone whom i'm not & i also dont want to pretend to be someone that i'm not..so either they accept me or what luh..

yea..

cried when bf told me not to this not to that blah blah..

felt super emotional..

emotions are running wild inside me..

i hate picky guys & there..my bf is one..

he's not only picky but fussy too..-_-

"buay tahan.."

simply, my bf has all the character that i hate..

i even wondered to myself that have i made the wrong decision by choosing him..?

but but he's sweet enough to be understandable & are willing to change his habit just for me..*touched* :')

no guy tries so hard to keep me..like never..not even once..

but no matter what negative thoughts i had, i'll always love him & only him..

idk why but i just have this feeling inside me tat tells me he's meant for me but the other side just cant stop suspecting that i've made the wrong choice..

so......in this case.."action speaks louder than words" must come in..

so am waiting for him to change for the better & i'll always be there to support him even if he dont..:))

so yeap..

心痛比快乐更真实。。

best day ever!!!

2011-07-30T00:10:00.000-07:00

"being able to see my dear is the best day ever!!!" ♥

met samantha for brunch.

then meet dearest at cityhall..

went to Marina Bay..

had early dinner at Mr Curry..

super nice can!!! OMG!!!

had the best dinner ever..:D

haha..

the curry omelet is super nice..haha

then went to suntec city walk walk..

hanged ard esplanade..

chatted, joked..

then train-ed home..

luckily still have last train..

haha..

dear panicked..

he thought there's no more train services to his home..

haha..

watched a korean drama with dear..

called 《玛丽外宿中》..

got addicted with the 亲爱的..

haha..

&& so loving dear text me 爱爱..

haha!!

okok..

tats so mushy..

haha..shall stop tat..

so loving my dearest..:D

TGIF!!! ♥

2011-07-29T23:39:00.000-07:00

"its Friday again.." yay-ness!!!

yup yup..

its Friday again..:D

today is the 2nd last of my Hiphop 1 dance lesson..

cant wait to go to the next level..

haha..:D

after lesson, met dear..:D

had dinner at waraku with mei, bd & bf..:))

soooo happy..:)

misses him muchie..

haha!!

slack ard the restaurant until it closes..

then home sweet home..:D

had a great time today..

♥ to ♥ talk..

2011-07-26T00:13:00.000-07:00

TO ME.."HE'S THE ONE.."

BUT...TO HIM, AM I JUST ANOTHER ONE??

OR MORE THAN THAT??

meeting bf later..

so eggcited..

haven't been seeing him for like 3 days..>_<

woke up ard 11 plus am..

then get ready to buy some groceries..

went to Daiso with bro..

had fun time shopping..:D

haha..

got all the materials tat i needed..:D

woohoo!!!

so happy..

especially my hearts chocolate silicon..:DD

yea baby!!!

then then went home happily with my silicon & stuffs for bf's surprise..:D

made hearts chocolate for dearie..:))

of course its made out of many many love from me..:))

haha..

bf bought me to holland village for dinner..

cos i never been there before..:D

tats my surprise from bf..

haha..sweet thou..:))

my bf always like to take me to the places that i've missed out in my whole 20 years in Singapore..

haha..so grateful to have him..

after dinner, went to IMM..

walked walked, hang ard & chatted..

chatted abt many many things..

chatted abt me, him, us, my frens, his frens etc..

as usual..talked abt some sensitive stuff & i teared..

den bf also almost teared..

then..yeap..

things are okay..

thou he still needs to improve..

but i'll wait for the day to come..:))

hope he'll do well for his last year..

"JIAYOUS SOTONG!!!! THOU KUKU IS NOT SO SMART BUT KUKU WILL ALWAYS BE CHEERING FOR YOU!!!!"

♥ BOYFRIEND ALOT..>u<

depressed..

2011-07-25T22:39:00.000-07:00

in the outside, i'm trying very hard to be like this..

but in the inside i'm feeling like this..

eventually i'm gonna be like this..

then, i'll realised..

but after lots of crying, i'll feel better somehow..

but those thoughts will still wonder in my mind..

so..yea..feel really terrible..>_<

now..i dont dare to meet my bf..

cos i'm afraid i'm not up to his standard..:((

i've got no face to see anyone..

anyways..

i'm gonna change no matter what..

i'm gonna be a better person..:))

*i hope*

so i must JIAYOUS!!!!

because...

:((

2011-07-24T15:02:00.000-07:00

WARNING !!!! : LONG EMO POST AHEAD..

DONT READ IF U'RE NOT INTERESTED IN RANTINGS OR EMO-NESS..

i just want a simple love..

is that so hard??

i want the whole world to know..

is that so hard??
i want to show ppl that not only you're "good looking", strong, kind but also funny & silly at the same time..

is that sth to be shameful of??

i want a guy to carry my handbag..

is that shameful?? i dont know..

thou i did not receive as much as i give but what i wanted is that so hard to please me or am i that hard to please??

i dont know..or maybe you did pleased me even when u're unwilling just to see me smile or what..

i do not expect anything in return but i just want to show you to ppl..

is that so hard??

everything that i want to do is because i'm proud to have you..

is that so hard??

maybe i just dont get it, maybe i dont understand him enough..:((

hmmmm...

i just hate his pride & ego..

i know everyone needs that but....sigh..

never mind..

EVERYTHING IS SO CONFUSING..

i've never regret but i guess i'm too harsh on me..:((

hmmmm.................again..

enough of this..maybe i shall pin it down deeper in my diary..>_<

felt soooooo useless..-_-

i want to cry..-.-

LOL..

WARNING!!! : SINGLISH AHEAD...

ALL I DO IS COS I LOVE HIM WHAT!!!!

is that so embarrassing??? :((

JIAYOUS ROLINDA!!!! :))))

SMILES & BE HAPPY!!

MUST BE CONTENTED & THANKFUL THAT U'RE FAT & THERE'S SOMEONE WHO LOVES YOU!!!

STOP COMPLAINING ALR & DO WHAT HE HOPED!!

GIVE HIM UR BEST!!!

but its so hard..:((

i want to go thailand..>_<

i misses thailand..>_<

maybe i want to avoid these..-.-

i really dono what to do lah........!!!!!!!!!!!

is like i felt soo happy yst then all crushed today..

why cant i feel happy everyday?????? *arggggh*

stupid me..>_<

feeling so shitty..>_<

sometimes i just feel that i'm not meant for you..

i...really dont know..

everything seems its my bad..*urgh* x/

i'm just not perfect..what to do???

now i seriously envy those "perfect" girls..sighhhh

now i so hate myself..:((

i need to change!!!! i want to change!!!

dont believe!!! i'll prove it to u!!! but still i did not expect it to be coming from you..sigh..

but if wanted sth more den i think i gotta change sth alr..

my partner probably..LOL..

kk..i'm an adult alr..

i think i really really must stop being so childish alr..

i cannot make him embarrassed anymore !!! :(

but..

imma happy girl..^6^

2011-07-23T00:30:00.000-07:00

meeting bf today..:D

wee..

meet him at city hall today..

went to marina square..

walk walk, see see, look look..

haha..

had thai dinner at shaw house..:DD

misses thai food loads..

had phat thai & pineapple fried rice, kang kong & fried calamari..:))

den walked to esplanade..^-^

chatted..

hmmm..

some topic is what i expected..

quite sad or kind of disappointed inside..

but anyways i'm willing to change..

cos i love him..

but yea..guess he wouldnt do the same as me thou..

went to bugis National library..

chatted..

took some photos..:D

den train-ed home..

had a great day with bf today..:))

suddenly i loved the way he locked my neck..haha!!

woooo...lets dance ^-^

2011-07-22T00:11:00.000-07:00

yeap..

its friday again..:DDD

having cramps..*arrrrgh*

feeling quite uncomfortable today..

bought hot chocolate at coffee bean before dance lesson..:D

*nice*

felt good after that..^-^

meet bf at 313 then find his sister at the bar..

i can say, his sister looks really pretty & elegant & so classy..:))

she is so pretty until i got mesmerized by her..haha

silly me..;)

then headed to dance lesson..

so nice of bf to send me to the studio then he went to accompany his sister..

lesson was great..

but body wave..

errrrr....-_-

haha..

had fun..:))

continued the dance routine..

haha..

after lesson, mei, baodong, bf & me went to eat dinner..:))

missed bf so much..^-^

then home sweet home..:D

&& bf got Gold for his NAFA test..:D

so proud of him..teehees

dreams..^-^

2011-07-21T22:48:00.000-07:00

everyone has dreams..

we dream even when we're a small kid..

some have BIG dreams, some have small dreams..

some came true but some did not..

some are hard, some worked hard..

some gave up cos they find it its impossible to make it come true..

some strive for it no matter how hard it is..

i do have dreams too..:))

school dreams, career dreams, love dreams, etc..

i remembered vividly that when i was little, my dream is when i grow up, i want to be a policewoman/lawyer, doctor/surgeon, kindergarden teacher, singer/songwriter/pianist..

&& of course my love life..haha!!

when i grow up, i want to marry my dream guy..

silly me..haha!!

so those with dreams..

hang it there..:D

i believe all of you can do it..:DD

oh happy day..

2011-07-20T14:57:00.000-07:00

"i've never met a guy who loves me so much..♥"

this few days have been hanging out with boyfriend..:))

not every single day thou..but every monday & saturday..:))

sometimes friday..if boyfriend is free or is somewhere near my dance lesson area..:D

thou its quite hard for him to cope but i hope he wont get so lethargic everyday..>_<

why POLYs have soooooo much assignments & projects to!!!!!!!!!!!!! *argh*

not even i pity my boyfriend, my mei also & her boyfriend & of course my bestie..>_<

all so stressed out..:((

*heartache*

tough right..>_<

but still i'm contented that no matter how busy or how tired boyfriend is, he still take the effort to meet me..*touched*

love him lots lots..♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

when i'm happy, i go "hmm hmm hmm"..

2011-07-15T00:31:00.000-07:00

weeeee!!!!!!! its Friday!!!!!

yeap..:D

finally..the day i've been always waiting for has arrive..:D

hees..

had dance lesson..:D

am almost late for lesson..

cos theres human jam..

i seriously hate taking public transport during public transport..*argh*

hate squeezing with people..-_-

yeap..rushed to scape & luckily i made it on time..:D

*wooohoo*

did warm up, & continue with the new dance steps..

after dance, went KFC to have late dinner..

*yums*

then bus-ed to Bugis with mei & bd..

just nice dear & his frens are at Bugis too & they're abt to leave..:))

den dear meet mei, bd & me at Bugis street..:))

*hees* sooooo happy...

it have been like ages i didnt see him alr..

missed BF loads..^-^

ate durian with mei, bd & dear..:D

hang ard then train-ed home..:D

hees..

a dream is a wish ur heart makes..^6^

2011-07-13T13:08:00.000-07:00

"i want to be your princess someday"..

hmm..have you ever wondered to be treated like a princess?

i think most girls do..including me..:))

who doesn want to be treated like a princess..? haha..

being treated like a princess is like being pampered, being loved by someone & even a sad story can be a happy one..:D

but i think i'll never have a chance to..hmm..

but but i'm alr thankful for what i have now..:)

being pampered its not a thing for me..cos i'm not born in a pampered family anyways..

so not really that important..haha

but sometimes i do envy those families or friends who have such a happy family..

LOL..am so silly..haha..

i just have to be me..:)

i need to change..hmm :/

things are not going so well as usual..

life is starting to have ups & downs soon..x/

jiayous ROLINDA!!!

& since am having holidays now..

shall do sth productive like start to go library to borrow some self motivation or self enhance book to read..just like my mei told me..:D

at least by reading it, it can give me some hope & it can improve me & can make me feel better..:)

things might not go according to what we planned..

2011-07-05T09:04:00.000-07:00

hmmm..

things might not go according to what we planned right?

cos in life, there're lots of ups & downs, sometimes things will go as planned but sometimes things will not go as well as we planned..

so whats the use of planning?

or i can say i'll use planning as my guide line..

future is a mystery, people say future is for us to explore..:D

so why not just enjoy the journey & we might see something that we did not come across..:)

to me..that is life..:)

or maybe to others..i'm just simple minded..;)

a day w/o you will miss u like hell..

2011-07-04T00:31:00.000-07:00

had marketing exam today..

shag..-_-

wanna wake up at 7am today but in the end delayed..

heh..

wake up at 9am instead..

awaken by the construction outside..

not so loud compared to last sat..

have my breakfast..

then headed to school for last min revision..

okay i know last min revision is bad..

but at least i rmbered everything..hahas..

but not all..*argh*

*guessed theres some problem with my brain cells..-_-*

reached school ard 10am ++..

went straight to the library to study..:D

then have my lunch ard 1pm++..

then exam starts at 3.45pm..

thank God that the essays that i've studied came out..:)) *hees*

i hope thou will not score as good but at least let me get a 'D', i'm contented..:D

haha..

after my exam, went to dear's school to look for him..:)

miss him much much..until i cannot tolerate..

so yeap..heh..

thou he's busy doing his work, i still want to see him..>_<

glad that he's not unhappy that i keep looking for him..*heh*

went to AMK hub to have our dinner at Ichiban..:D

yums..sushi..

have cravings for sushi after i've been working at sushi tei..*die*

is like i've been eating sushi for like almost 4 times a week..-_-

& not getting sick of eating it..weird uh..

haha..

anyways..

after dinner, went to get KOI..:D

then hang-ed ard the mall..

took circle line..

train-ed to paya lebar interchange..

hang-ed ard the station until 10pm then go home..

dear's having progress check on this work tmr so dont wanna take up his time to do his stuff..

then home sweet home..:D

misses dear alr..

& i love him loads..<3 why?

cos..

no guy would bend down & tie my shoe laces for me in my whole entire life other den my mom until i met my bf..*smiles* :')

no guy would care & protect me like my bf..

no guy would get worried abt me like my bf..

no guy would get panicked when i did not reply his textes like my bf..

no guy would get mad at me for keep saying that i've disturbed him like my bf..

no guy would crack up a random joke that would make me laugh like a fool other than my bf..

no guy would solve internet problems for me other than my bf..:)

no guy would hold my hands tightly & never let go like my bf..

no guy would hug me like my bf..

no guy would stand up for me like my bf..

& no guy would love me like my bf..<3

that is why i <3 my boyfriend..:D

he used to be the guy whom i hate but now..he was just kind of my perfect guy..>v< *hees*

thou we just started dating..

& everything is going well & sweet just like other r/s is, but we do not know what our future will be like..thus i'll cherish whatever i have now & prepare for the future..:)

shopping wif dear..:))

2011-07-02T01:10:00.000-07:00

suppose to meet dearest today for lunch at 10.30am..

but he's late..-_-

as usual..haha..same as me..always got a habit of being late >_<..

but am trying to change..:D

wanna eat sushi..

but ate subway for lunch instead since dear had alr eaten his lunch..*humph*

anyways..he ate my cookie while i eat my wrap..:))

yum yum..:D

Subway is way better than Quinzno sub..^-^

then after lunch, went to converse & buy a shoe..:D

dear also wanna buy but the shop does not have his size..>_<

so i buy first..:))

den dear came to my house..

hang ard den decided to go orchard central to look for his shoe..:))

went orchard central..

a huge mall..:D

i didnt know theres this 12 floor mall in orchard..

oh man..>_< i'm such a kuku..-_-

yeaps..

bought a T-shirt for dear & my bro..:D

halfway when going to have our dinner, i got a tummy ache..>n<

guess its my gastric acting up..

everytime when i'm out..argh!! hate it ttm..

at first not much appetite but after i drink a cup of hot tea,

i feel better..:D

den after dinner, walked to Dhouby Ghuat mrt..

train-ed home..

went to get sushi from NTUC..

ate & chatted under the block & hang ard at the playground..

love all the small talks wif dear..:))

i'm happy & glad that i have him ard to care & protect me..:))

his my BESTEST FRIEND, BESTEST BROTHER & BESTEST BOYFRIEND i ever had!!! <3

am so happy!!! >v<

its friday..:)

2011-07-01T01:06:00.000-07:00

was at home the whole day..

updating my blog, twitter-ing, facebook-ing, listening to music..:D

can't wait for dance lesson..

hees..:D

went to scape early today..

practice some of the up-bounce steps..

heh..

a proper dance routine today..

although not so good..>_<

but practice makes perfect right..:D

though i'm abit slow but i know i can do it..:D

after dance met dear & had botak jones as dinner..:D

had mini fish & chips..:D

hahas..happy happy..:))

bought gongcha & went to hang ard at scape after that..:D

went home ard 11pm ++..:D

hmmm..

sometimes i feel that i'm a bit retard or i got down syndrome or sth..

i just dont do things faster than other ppl..

& i tends to think slower than ppl..:(

i dont know why i will have that kind of thoughts & that really upset me..

i feel so useless..

i want to be intelligent, fast thinker, someone that ppl will go to..

sigh..but thats me..

i have to be optimistic..:D

& i believe that i sure have sth good in me..:))

jiayous ROLLIE..:D

meeting dear..:D

2011-06-27T21:32:00.001-07:00

worked yst..

& today am meeting dear at his school..:D

suppose to meet dear at 12 noon..

but we're late..heh

in the end meet dear at yio chu kang ard 12.40pm ++..

dear quickly bring me to the library, find a table & settled me down while he went off to his class..

studied, slacked abit..

heh.sleepy..>_<

den ard 2pm+ dear came to the library to find me before he goes to his presentation..

am suppose to meet my friend samantha for lunch but in the end she's late cos before that she went to Queenstown for her project stuff..then told her we can meet other days..

yeap..was super hungry..>_<

stomach growling in the library & its not cool..LOL!!

its super embarrassing..

at ard 4pm, dear went to his presentation den i went to meet xiaosi..:D

thank God that she's dismissed from class..

so went to the canteen & get something small to eat..:D

yay-ness like finally..:D

haha!!!

so happy..

then ard 5pm, xiaosi went home..

wanted to chat with her longer but she got projects to do so dont wanna drag her time..

studying while waiting for dear to end his presentation..:D

5.oopm++ dear came..:D

ate Macspicy for dinner..:D

yums yums!!!

it have been like 1 2 3 4 5... years i last had Macspicy..:D

*teehee*

after dinner, dear & i walked to ang mo kio..

went to catch a movie at AMK Hub..

we watched treasure inn..

that sure is an awesome + funny movie..

haha!!

after the movie, stayed ard the mall..

then train-ed to raffles place,

slacked for awhile then home sweet home..:D

had a wonderful time wif dear today..:D

i love my boyfriend loads loads..<3

zoo date..^-^

2011-06-25T02:17:00.000-07:00

meeting dear today @ 9.30am..

he's late as usual..haha

so paiseh to let his fren wait..

haha..

anyways..

bus-ed to the zoo..

was super happy..:D

cos i'm going to the zoo not wif my frens or family but wif dear..:D

this time, i have someone to hold my hand while walking.. *teehee*

went to visit all the animals..

it have been such a long time i last went to the zoo..

thou its tiring at the end of the day..

but but i have lots of fun & i'm happy..:D

hope to have more outings wif dear as time passed by..:D

*hoping theres no more lonnnnnnng walks*

hahas!!!

dance..:)

2011-06-24T02:12:00.001-07:00

went to dance alone today..

missing dear much much..

thinking abt dear walking wif me to the train station last friday makes me smile..hees..

but today was different..

he's working today..

anyways was looking forward to the lesson today..;D

not only today..every friday.:D

haha..

learnt up bounce today..:D

was pissed at myself at some point of the time cos couldnt catch & keep making mistakes..

thou it was abit difficult but still..had fun..:D

haha..

train-ed home..:D

& cant wait to meet deary tmr for zoo date..:D *teehee*

double date..:D

2011-06-22T01:05:00.000-07:00

meet dear today right after school dismiss..

cant wait to see him..:D haha..

meet dear at Douby ghaut..

watched Mr Popper's Penguins..

its a nice movie..:D

some parts are quite funny..

haha..

wanted to watch kungfu panda 2 but on that day dont have..

so yeap..

after movie, walked to raffles place to get dear's pay..

then head to KFC to have our lunch..:D

after that dear showed me a shortcut to my workplace..

headed back to the MRT then walked to esplanade..

then to marina bay sand..

meet mei & her bf at 7.00pm..

rested at the bench..

took photos, played, chatted etc..

then we headed to the Singapore flyer & grab a small bite..

after that we went and chill at the side of a small "sea" or sth.. reservoir??

we left thr at 10pm..

headed back to the train station..

then home sweet home..:D

had a great day today wif dear, mei & ah bao..:D

i ❤ my dear..

2011-06-21T14:26:00.000-07:00

after 14 of june, my days was happier..:))

this few days have been enjoying myself ttm..:D

cos dear took the effort to come & find me..:')

shoooo sweet of him..:D

super touched can!!!

went vivo to watch x-men : first class with dear yst..

wanted to go mount faber but due to the blazing weather, we decided to stay put in vivo city..

haha!!

walked ard vivo for hours & we enjoyed tat..:D

cos we got each other's company..

teehee..

thou i got cramps..*argh*

but i really enjoyed being with dear..:D

after being with him, i felt that i finally found the "ONE"..

he loves my all & i feel that i can totally depend on him & he'll always be there for me..

whenever i thought of him and all, i feel so emotional dont know why..but happy..:')

he appreciates me & i appreciates him..

i wanna love him lots lots & hope this will last..:D

our future is for us to discover & i shall not worry for it but cherish the times tgt now..:D

i'm really glad to have him ard..<3

rolinda's thoughts

random post..

Chinese New Year Day 2 with laogong..

Chinese New Year day 1..:DD

our very first outing..^-^

I LOVE MY FRIENDS ❤❤❤

i'm 21 already..

so many things, so little time.

last day of 20..

2nd day of 2012..

Hmm..

2012!!! :DD

New Year Eve!! :DD

Study...

dance dance dance..:DDD

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! ^-^

Christmas eve..

Movie date with buddy..:DD

Christmas party..:DDD

very first time to open class..:DD

after for so long..❤

Let's get buttered..:D

sakae with bestest buddy!!! :DD

It's another girly affair..^-^

♥♥♥♥♥..

sushi tei !!!

last lesson of hiphop lll..

Last time..

It's Wednesday!!!!! Let's pop..HAHAHA!!! ♥

Happy Feet 2..^-^ ♥

B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L..

Jayley & Hayley..:D

awww...isn't he sweet..^-^

那些年，我們一起追的女孩..♥.

I must learn to be positive..^0^

When you’re staring at your crush and he/she looks back at you..

I've learnt to live half a life..

Just as i knew it..

Q.T : j tujmm mpwf zpv

Cool or what? hmm..♥

45 things to be happy about..^-^

what is love?

does he?

sushi tei dinner & dance..:D

bye october, hello november..

happy halloween!! :D

day 17..

i dont know why but..

i wanna...

torturous week..

a new begining..a new chapter..

the end of the chapter..

i thought everything is gonna be okay soon..

Bleeding..

sometimes it just felt this way..

dance..

its our 3rd..:))

lantern festival..:((

sighh..

fruitful & meaningful early sisterhood day..:D

niece turns 6..:D

meet dearest..

samantha is here..:D

finally a proper date..:D

forever not good enough..:/

cried again..:'(

dance as usual..

work with dearie..:D

cried T^T

kana scolded *humph*

moses birthday chalet..

T.G.I.F..:D

went to dear's place & surprise him..*hees*

dear's surprise failed..haha!!

hiphop 2 !!! :D

happy birthday singapore!!!

marina bay sands!! :D

last lesson of hiphop 1..

>_<..

love in a disney movie..

kana scolded humph

went to dear's place & surprise him..hees